It had me and wouldn’t let go. That persistent, can’t drown it out with more work, more shopping, more anything urge. Couldn’t see the details, but I knew It felt big. I knew it shot electricity through my body when I thought of it. Connected me like a bolt to omnipotence and my ancestors at once. I knew it moved me to hallelujah tears. So, what did I do? Immediately started counting all the reasons why it wouldn’t work – at least not now. How would I pay for it? How would it impact a career I’d worked so hard to create? When would I find the time? Where would I even begin?
“Now. . . I can see the thru line of it all.”
So, for a long while, I distracted myself in a swirl of someday one day. Someday I’ll do this and one day I’ll do that. On days when TV production or life got nuts, I daydreamed and made imaginary plans to launch a non-profit with my husband Craig, but with little variation in my daily life. But of course, the more I thought of it, the more thoughts showed up and the louder the yearning grew. Soon I began to feel the deep discordance between where I was and this thing that needed to be. The lack of harmony gave me far too many days of dark, dank blues.
“That’s the payoff when you say yes . . . “
Now firmly on this path with years behind me, I can see the thru line of it all. My pondering drew me closer to it. My imagination formed it and then like a beacon signaled circumstances to it. Now I marvel at how our urges are guideposts. That through torturous agitation or joyful inspiration, they can lead to the path of our greatest unfoldment – open the door to full-out adventure. That’s the payoff when you say yes to your dream and find the courage to take that wildly crazy scary first step. Taking a deep breath and big leap – That’s how Urban Possibilities was born.
Eyvette Jones-Johnson,
Co-Founder & Executive Director,
Urban Possibilities
